So, the fear has set in.
It started because we were going through the paperwork that DS1 will have access to. What will we let him see, what will we not?
We have a folder that age appropriate 0+. We have a folder that's 18+. What about the stuff in the middle? When do we have to tell him what his BM's name is, when do we have to tell him what his birth surname was? Will he go looking? How far will he look?
And all of a sudden I don't feel good enough to be DS1's mum, because I want to protect him, and hold him close and never let him go. Because I don't want him to know info that may hurt him. Info that may cause him to look. Info that may lead to me losing him.
The fear.
Birth parents don't know how lucky they are that they have no reason to experience it.
